I am on a weight loss journey and so I wanted to see what caused me to eat like i did. and so i thought oh why not start writing about it. so this is what i have came up with so far. I am in no way blaming anyone for me gaining weight as I never had to pick up the food but i found it never let me down. so that was my fault but it helps to see where it started at...

Growing up I was always the skinny child but then I ate a lot after my parents divorce. I found comfort in food as it was always there for me as it never pushed me away and made me feel like I was the problem to anything. I never talked about how I felt about my parents divorce as my
mom had left me with my dad as she went off with the man who lived below us named JJ. It was like she picked her happiness and left me behind. It wasn't until the dreadful day of my near drowning that got her to open her eyes and came and got me and Tammy. Why did it cost me to almost drown to see that I wasn't being looked after?? I still continued to eat my problems away when i went to live with my mom and jj as i had no contact with my dad well almost no contact I do remember talking to him some on the phone every now and then and telling him what i wanted for my birthday and that was a car i can drive and i think now i did that to be able to drive away my pain but the food was always there no matter what.. it was there.