prayer request for my dad

ok i will be the first to admitt it but I am a mommy's girl..always have been...she is there when I need to cry, laugh or talk to...but my attention is towards my dad...He is at the hospital fighting a battle for his life...I love my dad and now I am crying again..I haven't treated my dad like he ought to be treated I admit I have feelings for my dad that I have to work on..and with him being in the hospital its bringing those feelings out and i am having a hard time dealing with them...so please work with me on this...

I was so hurt by Him not showing up to my wedding I always wanted my dad to give me away my mom stepped up and gave me away but he showed up to my brother and sis in laws wedding and gave her away...
He says call him more often but can't call us...
complains when I am not on the computer as often as i should be...
says constantly I don't love him...
says you need to loose weight...

I love my dad so very much but with the examples above show you what i have dealt with from him in the past 16 yrs...part of me feels that he didn't want me as a baby so he says things to me as an adult to push me away...I AM HERE DAD...I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...